My Testimony of Coming Out of A Works Based FALSE Gospel and Back Into the Light of the Glorious Gospel Of Christ
Introduction:
Having had come out of a false gospel recently (about 2 months ago), I am finally at the point of accepting that I had been deceived once again. It doesn't feel good to admit, and sometimes I think "How could I have been so gullible?". I completely understand that no one is above deception, It's just that in the very start of my walk, I had came out of a deception. A different type of deception but a deception nonetheless. So having gone from one deception to the next within the span of a year, is just infuriating to say the least. I'm almost in the middle of year 4 of being on my walk with Mashiach (Christ) and it pains me to know that 1.5 out of 3 of those previous years were spent caught up in the webs of a false doctrine/gospel, while wholeheartedly believing that I was walking in the truth. Now don't get me wrong, the Most High was still very much working in me and in my life during that time. Trust and believe that it is ONLY by Him that I have come out of the deception, both times! Not only am I able to clearly see the deception of the doctrine but I am also now able to see all of the challenges that came about as a result of being under that false doctrine. In this blog, I am going to explain what the false doctrine is and why it is false, then I'm going to break down the timeline of me entering into the false doctrine all the way up until the time of me coming out of it. I'm going to discuss what my walk was like prior then go on to explaining how it happened, why it happened, the challenges that arose from it, and how I came out of it. This post may be lengthy but please stick around, ESPECIALLY if you feel that you may have fell victim to the same deceptive doctrine.
The False Doctrine/Gospel
The False Doctrine/ Gospel That I Fell Victim To:
The false doctrine/gospel that I fell victim to is what's widely known as the "Torah Keeping" or "Torah Observant" movement doctrine. Though, I call it the "Faith in Mashiach (Christ) + Law of Moses" doctrine since many people consider the keeping of the law of Moses as something that we're required to do in order to prove our faith in Mashiach (Christ). Many people say that its the works that's supposed to accompany our faith, and then they'll use the James 2:26 "Faith without works is dead" verse to "prove" it, not realizing that they are taking the this verse completely out of its proper context (check out the blog I made about it, titled "Faith Without Works Is Dead (Breakdown)). Now, before coming out of this deception myself, I too shared the same sentiments. So, I truly understand their way of thinking and how convinced they are that this is the truth. So, this blog isn't to shame or make fun of anyone, its just to simply shed light on the false doctrine itself, in hopes that it will lead others to being awakened out of it! Okay moving on to explain why this doctrine is false.
Why Its A False Doctrine/Gospel:
This doctrine is false and teaches another gospel because of the fact that after Mashiach's (Christ's) resurrection, the ordinances of the law of Moses was nailed to the cross (Colossians 2:14), and the priesthood being changed when Mashiach became our new and forever High Priest, according to the order of Melchizedek, the law was also changed (Hebrews 7:12), which means we are now under the law of Mashiach (Christ) which is the law of the new covenant, not the law of Moses which is law of the old covenant. There are many more precepts that backs up the fact that we are NOT under the law of Moses anymore, but since the main focus of this blog post is to share my testimony, I won't give a breakdown this time. Instead I'll list some scriptural references that y'all can read in y'all own time and perhaps I'll do a breakdown on it in another post. But for now, here are some scriptural references: The entire book of Galatians, Hebrews 7, 2 Corinthians 3, Romans 7, Colossians 2:11-23. Okay moving on to the timeline.
The Timeline Leading Up To Deception
The start of my walk:
In the very beginning of my walk, my faith in Mashiach (Christ) was very childlike. I remember feeling a deep and pure love for Him, amazed at the transformation that had taken place in my life, I was so zealous for telling others my testimony of how He saved me from my severe internal turmoil. My heart was filled with gratitude and my mind was centered around Him; I would discuss Him often with others of the faith and even with those who weren't but were willing to listen. I would sleep with scriptures playing on YouTube most nights for comfort, and may I add, I would sleep like a freaking baby too! In the very beginning of year 2, I started making many songs about repentance, sanctification, trusting in the Most High, the deception of the world, etc. I pretty much would evangelize through music, which carried on the whole year. Something else that is crucial to point out is that while I understood Yahusha (Jesus) to be God in the flesh, acknowledging His divinity, I was still very much able to recognize His separate role. And not separate in the sense of Him not being one with the Father, but in the sense of His purpose. And I know you may be thinking "well, duh" but I assure you, there is a reason why I've added that piece of information and I will go on to explain in just a bit. Another thing I'd like to expound on is that for me it has NEVER been about religion or believing in vain. In fact, before my walk I was super anti bible because I had associated it with the religion Christianity. I presumed it to be a religious book rather than recognizing it to be the Word of the Living God. All that to say, from the very beginning of my walk, it was always about RELATIONSHIP rather than religion and that's because of the fact that it was my very first encounter with the Holy Spirit that had caused me to believe in the first place, so from the very start, my belief was based on personal experience rather than the experiences of others. That being said, I never classified myself to be apart of the religion Christianity. From the very beginning, I only considered myself to be a believer in Christ, and it is still very much that way today, though I prefer to use His Hebrew name now. There are many great reasons why I don't and will never consider myself to be apart of the religion Christianity, which I'll eventually make a separate post about. Moving on, lets fast forward to about 9 months later of what was then going on in my walk just before I was unknowingly swayed into a false doctrine.
A Month Prior To Falling Victim:
So about a month (or maybe a little before that), prior to being swayed into the false doctrine, I was going through an intensive refinement, widely referred to as a sanctification, process where the Most High was stripping me of things, desires, plans and goals that were not from nor of Him. What led to this intensive refinement taking place was that I had gotten to a place in my walk where things had just felt very stagnant and I strongly felt that something wasn't right, of course I recognize it now to be that the Most High alerting my spirit, urging me to seek progression in Him, I was struggling with reading the Word consistently, I was hardly ever praying (I didn't really know how), and I kept finding myself giving more attention to other things than spending time with Him. It had gotten to a point where I said to myself "I don't think I'm walking the narrow path", and as I pondered on that thought, I began to realize more and more that something wasn't right. I compared my walk with others, in a healthy way, and noticed some very noticeable differences. Two of the main things that was highlighted in my mind was 1. I was still struggling with backsliding, often giving in to the temptation of my flesh and 2. I was not experiencing the lasting peace and joy that believers are supposed to be experiencing and that I would see others experiencing. This helped me to clearly see that I was in fact walking the broad path, rather than the narrow one! Around this same time, maybe a week or so later, something was being brought to my attention concerning a thing I was actively engaged in that I didn't recognize to be sinful because I was convinced that I had not received any conviction, but it was something that was coming to mind prior to it being pointed out to me. When it was then pointed out to me, that is when I had looked into it, assuming that Yah was trying to get my attention. So I sought with a genuine heart to know how the Most High felt about it, and I was then led to watch other's testimonies concerning the matter, and if I'm remembering correctly, I started with a video that was recommended for me to watch. Maybe a few days later, I was then completely convinced that the Most High certainly do not want His children partaking in that thing because I had took notice that the conviction was growing, the more I meditated on it. And so I had completely stopped doing it and threw out everything associated with it, and THAT was the start of my refinement process, the second time around! Less than a week later, I either came across or decided to watch a video on YouTube (I don't remember) where a sister in Christ, whose name is Rachel and whose testimony I had watched previously concerning the other matter, that I was feeling convicted about, was explaining the baptism of the Holy Spirit and the radical change that happens when one truly receives it. Little did I know that this video would incite the vital change in my walk. Her video helped me to recognize that I had not yet had the baptism of the Holy Spirit (only the sealing) and that was the very reason why I was still struggling with backsliding and giving into the desires of my flesh. After hearing her speak about all that happens when one receives it, led me to wholeheartedly seeking to receive it myself. I followed her directive on how to seek, which included fasting and spending lots of time in prayer. So after about a few days or so of doing so, a very noticeable change took place in my heart where I had experienced the presence of the Most High like never before prior to that point of my walk and I was able to quite literally feel the heart of Yah. Which is hard to put into words, but the best way that I can explain it is that I was able to experience how He feel about certain people, things and situations as if the feeling was my very own feelings. I was able to feel the love He had for certain people, and His frustration about certain things and situations. One day I will expound on that experience and others like it in a different post, for the sake of staying on track. So during that experience, which lasted a few days, of strongly feeling His presence and His heart about things, my understanding on the matters of holiness and righteousness had deepened greatly to where I was truly able to understand how the Holy Spirit gives us the power to overcome our flesh daily and to do the Will of the Most High. I realized that the role of the Holy Spirit is to help us achieve holiness and walk in righteousness, which is more than possible when we walk in the Spirit. My understanding continued to grow on what living a holy life all entails and what it truly means to deny ourself and pick up our cross daily as well as learning more about what's pleasing and displeasing to Yah. It was VERY shortly after this experience that the enemy crept in and swiftly lead me astray. Moving on to how I fell victim to the false doctrine/gospel.
Falling Into Works Based Salvation (Faith in Mashiach (Christ) + Law of Moses)
Falling Victim to the False Doctrine/Gospel:
Okay, just to back it up a little bit, about 6 months prior to when my refinement process began, I was desiring to find a church home, well really I was desiring to be surrounded by other believers. My husband and I were told that the Sabbath wasn't Sunday but actually Saturday, and so majority of the churches are in error, & looking back, I see now, that's where the seed was planted by the enemy. Keeping that in mind, I went on a search for churches that had service on Saturday's, it was quite a difficult search honestly but I ended up coming across a local 7 day Adventist church. At the time, I didn't have much knowledge about the different denominations, so I didn't know exactly what their specific beliefs were, all I knew was that they believe the Sabbath to be on Saturday's also and so my Husband and I started to attend that church. We were attending for a couple of months, that was up until we had seen that they had celebrated Christmas, which my husband and I understood to be a pagan holiday that has wicked origins, so we were thrown off and stopped attending immediately after that. There were other reasons also, but that was the main determining factor. Okay, fast forwarding, If I'm remembering correctly, shortly after I had gained understanding on holiness and righteousness, I had then grew the desire to know the true names of the Father and the Son. And so I sought to know about it in fasting and praying, and soon after I had received confirmation of their Hebrew names, the idea of joining a congregation again began to grow again but this time, I was desiring to fellowship with other believers who also knew and used the Hebrew names that were revealed to me, and were also pursuing holiness. My husband and I didn't want to fellowship with lukewarm believers and/or believers who celebrated pagan holidays. Maybe a week or so later, there was someone who reached out to me, inviting my Husband and I to join their online congregation. They reached out a few more times with the invite. I told my Husband about it and we were open to joining, that was until I had analyzed their twitter profile and came to realize that they were OT only, which stands for Old Testament only. That means that they don't believe in Yahusha Ha’Mashiach (Jesus Christ) or any of the New Testament books, and that was an immediate rag flag for both my Husband and I. So we declined their offer. The very next day, a friend of ours who is also a brother in Mashiach (Christ), told us about the congregation that he's apart of and how they meet on zoom every Saturday for the sabbath. He said that he would ask the elders if we could join and at the time, this seemed to have been something that the Most High was orchestrating and, honestly maybe it still was but for a different reason than what we believed to be at that time. At that time, I was very excited, believing that my prayer was answered. Also, knowing that they use the same Hebrew names that were revealed to me and also seeing that our brother in Mashiach (Christ) genuinely pursues the Most High, we had reasons to assume that being apart of this congregation would be helpful to our walk. About 1 or 2 sabbaths later, we joined our first sabbath with the congregation and in the beginning, the things being taught seemed to be good and fruitful. They were sharing their testimonies about coming out of Christianity and learning what they consider to be "the truth" (which at the time I thought they were referring to coming to the true Hebrew names of the Father and Son). They were also giving praise reports and just saying things that were seemingly on point, and so we were led to believe that they had and were teaching sound doctrine. It took a little while for red flags to start becoming apparent to us, concerning some of the things that they were teaching. It wasn't until about 2 months of fellowshipping with them, that the red flags started to appear to us as red flags. Leading up until that point, we had learned the Hebrew alphabet, a list of English words that derived from the names of Greek gods and goddesses that we ought to try our best to avoid saying, some information about the Hebrew calendar and upcoming feast days, and more biblical truths that were considered to be distorted in Christianity. Which are all things that we didn't recognize as red flags at the time, because of the fact that they used scriptures from the old testament to back up everything they said and us not having much knowledge on the old testament at the time, and also having recently come to the truth of who the true bloodline Israelites are, this information was intriguing to say the least. And so we were too captivated by this new biblical information to see what was really going on. Moving on to the apparent red flags.
The Red Flags:
One of the first apparent red flags for me was when majority of those within the group would generalize everyone who consider themselves to be a Christian, as lost and unbelieving. This wasn't an apparent red flag at first, as I initially assumed that they meant the ones who weren't pursuing holiness and/or have not truly put their faith in Mashiach (Christ) and preached the unrepentant/hyper grace false gospel. After overlooking it the first couple of times, I began to realize that they meant anyone who doesn't know or use the Hebrew names. This appeared as a red flag to me because of the fact that I know of Christians that pursue holiness and are all about walking in obedience. Another red flag was that they considered my Husband and I to be "new" to the truth, when in actuality we had been on our walk with Mashiach (Christ) years prior to congregating with them. At first I didn't understand why they kept considering us as new believers just because we had come to the knowledge of the Hebrew names, but now I see that they equated knowledge of the true bloodline Israelites and Hebrew names/language as coming to the truth, rather than knowledge/truth of Mashiach (Christ). Another apparent red flag was that anytime someone would leave the group, it would always be because they "don't like" or "can't handle" the truth, or they "fell back into Christianity", making the teacher of the group never at fault, which made me raise an eyebrow but even then, we didn't see it as a reason to leave the group. All of these red flags seemed minor initially. We stayed for a little while longer, up until another red flag appeared, this time being a major one; majority of the members had parted ways with the group due to some messy things that were going on behind the scenes. As a result, a group of members that left ended up forming their own group. After finding out what was truly going on behind the scenes, my husband and I decided to take a break from the initial group also. Around this time, we were already missing a few of the gatherings, because of some things that were going on in our personal life, though we would join as often as we could. But because we decided to take a break because of everything that was happening within the group, we ended up being kicked out. We did decide to join the other group of members in their gathering for some time. And like before, things were going well at first then eventually some red flags began to pop out, the main and most concerning one being self righteousness. There was a member in the group who was being nitpicky about another member in the group using the "incorrect" spelling of some Hebrew words, when they had sent an encouraging verse in the group chat. And a few minutes later, they were then "rebuking" another member for visiting family on the Sabbath instead of attending the group in our regular sabbath gatherings. After the person explained their reasoning, which was indeed reasonable, the person rebuking them was still unwilling to lighten up. This was an obvious red flag for me because of the fact that grace, mercy, and compassion was missing from the rebuker and it was quite obvious that they were operating from a place of self righteousness, though they may not have realized it. And this isn't to shame them or anything, as I've also fell into the tricky trap of self righteousness myself, it's definitely easy to fall into. It's just that at that point of my walk, it was something I had recently come out of and were then able to recognize when others are ensnared in it. Also, at that point of my walk, I was heavily focused on the fruit of the Spirit and Spirit led/filled teachings and so I was able to see the error more clearly. Moving on to the challenges.
The Challenges:
How I Came From Under This False/Deceptive Doctrine
Sidenote: For this rest of this blog, I will continue writing the English names/titles instead of both the Hebrew names/titles. Please note that I do interchange between the two for the sake of not confusing those who are not yet aware of the Hebrew names/titles. I do not want this post to be a stumbling block for them. If this is bothersome for you, I apologize in advance. Okay, lets continue...
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